From the recording Pet Loss & Love That Remains
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
The house is full of questions I cannot answer now,
I go back to that Tuesday and I run through it, how.
Your eyes were getting tired, you leaned into my hand,
I told you I would see you soon, but did you understand?
[Pre-Chorus]
The clock kept saying mercy while my chest said no,
I signed my shaking name and tried to let you go.
[Chorus]
Did you know, when I said it’s time to go,
that my heart was breaking open, I could barely hold?
I made the hardest promise not to let you feel the pain.
Did you know I’d give the world just to have you back again?
I hope you knew.
[Verse 2]
I replay every symptom, was I early, was I late,
That last small ride in silence, sunlight on your face.
The leash stayed on its hook, the receipt is in a drawer,
I sit inside the after and I ask a thousand more.
[Pre-Chorus]
They tell me I was brave, but their rooms are not like mine,
Where empty bowls and blankets make a different kind of sign.
[Chorus]
Did you know, when I said it’s time to go,
that my hands were learning courage while my eyes said no?
I kept my quiet promise not to let you feel the pain.
Did you know I’d trade my future just to hold you once again?
I hope you knew.
[Bridge]
If you could answer back, I think you’d say I tried,
You’d lay your weight against me and forgive the way I cried.
[Chorus]
Did you know, when I whispered it was time,
every word was torn in two so you could rest in mine?
If love is choosing mercy when the body says we’re through,
I chose it while I shattered, with a fear I couldn’t soothe,
The silence kept its answer and it never offered proof.
I hope you knew.